I think every now and then it’s important to keep yourself accountable for your actions. I know of no better way to do this than to share with you, my audience, my strengths and pitfalls. My triumphs and my failures.
I’ve been trying to count calories and I’m not 100% sure it’s working.
I can’t remember how I managed to lose so much weight last time, and I’m trying not to fall in to the trap of rapid fad dieting, but it’s hard. I have less than 5 weeks to get in to my maid of honour gown, but I just can’t seem to lose the weight. I try to remind myself that it won’t be the end of the world, but there is something truly disheartening about not seeming to be able to get my shit together. The dress zips up, finally though. It’s just tight. Really tight.
I’ve swapped back to measuring myself, instead of weighing-in, but I know that I have excess fat I can’t budge. Being vegetarian I’m finding it really hard to find easy meal prep ideas that hit all macros and still give me all my vitamins and minerals. I know it’s possible – I’m just struggling. Back when I was a meat-eater, it was easy to meal prep; Brown rice, chicken seasoned different ways, and broccoli. Over and over. Done. Now however, I just find myself lost. I love salad, I love my meat substitutes, but I’m just finding it hard to find ways to meal prep them and justify the sodium levels in prepackaged food.
It’s really starting to get to me. I’m trawling forums for weight loss, muscle gain, fitness routines and recipes to fuel my body while training but without stacking on more weight or fat. I know the logic of less caloric intake than output, but finding that balance is really hard. My resolve falters after a hard gym sesh and I can’t walk for a few days. My laziness and pain reigns supreme and I just can’t get myself out of bed. It’s ridiculous, and stupid.
To counteract this misery shame spiral, here are a few methods I’m using:
-Scheduled cardio sessions, recovery sessions and two weight training sessions in to my calendar.
-I’m pinning notes to my computer and on my phone with recipe ideas and easy ways to meal prep.
-I’m spending more time looking at recipes I’m happy to eat over and over rather than binging The Crown on Netflix.
-Cutting back coffee, having herbal tea instead
-Making sure I don’t starve myself
-Using a smaller plate for portion control
-Not eating out as often – which is helping my bank account as well as my waist line.
I have the plan. I just need to stick to it and discipline is my biggest flaw – I just don’t have self-discipline when my mental health declines. Which, honestly, it has been for a while now. But that’s a conversation for another day…
Stay silly, kids xx