A Self Indulgent Dissertation

crapEarlier today I was sitting in a small office hidden away from my job pretending to do my schooling. I’m currently studying Business, which is laughable given my history, but life is a big joke and I’m rolling with the punchlines. Early in to the morning I came across one of the final projects that said:

Create a new Word document and enter 4 pages of content.
The topic is up to you.

I stared at the screen, a Grinch-like smile spreading across my face as I realised now was the chance to rant about how I was feeling about various topics. Having had a bad morning for absolutely no reason whatsoever, I began writing what I lovingly called “Why this is crap- a four page dissertation on everything”. It was meant to be a scathing four page rant (following the criteria of the assessment to include headings, borders, indentation blah blah blah); Then I realised. This is not the correct place to take out my frustration. Sure, It will be fun to write, and I can have it all compiled, but submitting it as an assessment would probably be the epitome of self-indulgence. Which, while I’m a fan of a little self-indulgence, I’m not really one to smear it all over an unsuspecting trainer trying to innocently mark my substandard work.

I was delightfully reminded by a little ping on my phone that I have a website that I created specifically for this reason. I’ll be using this humble little platform to upload excerpts of the “four page dissertation on everything I find annoying” (I’ve changed the tag line. You’ll get over it- I promise). I plan on writing it as the dissertation I had originally planned it to be, but I’ll upload excerpts, chapters and some accompanying images as they crop up.

“A treat is a small pleasure or indulgence that we give to ourselves just because we want it. Treats give us greater vitality, which boosts self-control, which helps us maintain our healthy habits.”
Gretchen Rubin

As I said, I have no issue with a little self-indulgence. It can create a nice break from the smothering reality of responsibility and adulthood. I find being able to occasionally step back from self control and being calm is a real treat. Letting the angry freak flag fly in a semi controlled environment allows an individual to clear the mind and feel refreshed to start again. It allows the steam to vent and the air to clear.

Let the self-indulgence begin.



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